tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5303469872371420952024-03-13T19:55:30.194-07:00Tatum's AngelsZeffiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15467585871583478613noreply@blogger.comBlogger66125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-530346987237142095.post-13832989930799906692013-05-07T11:50:00.000-07:002013-05-07T11:50:13.308-07:00<script>document.write(unescape("%3Cstyle%20type%3D%22text/css%22%3E%0Abody%20%7B background-image %3A%20url%28%22http%3A//i342.photobucket.com/albums/o401/Thecutestblogontheblock/showermecopy.jpg %22%29%3B%20background-position%3A%20center%3B%20background-repeat%3A%20no-repeat%3B%20 background-attachment %3A%20fixed%3B%20%7D%0A%3C/style%3E%0A%3Cdiv%20id%3D%22tag%22%20 style%3D%22position%3Aabsolute %3B%20left%3A0px%3B%20top%3A30px%3B%20z-index%3A50%3B%20 width%3A150px%3B%20height%3A45px%3B%22%3E%0A%3Ca%20href%3D%22 http%3A//www.thecutestblogontheblock.com%22%20target%3D%22_blank%22%3E%0A%3Cimg%20src %3D%22http%3A//www.thecutestblogontheblock.com/images/tag.png%22%20border%3D%220%22/ %3E%0A%3C/a%3E%3C/div%3E%20"));</script>Another year has come and gone. It has now been 3 years since Tatum died and I am sad to say that it has gotten easier. Part of me wants the pain to stay fresh only because it is hard to hold onto such few memories and my mind forgets things that I thought I would never forget. This year we decided that on his birthday we would put out all of the pictures blankets and stuffed animals, things from the hospital and his first outfit. It is all on a table in the front room set up as a memorial. The plan is to keep it all set up from his birthday till his death day. It has been so nice to have the constant reminder of how real it all was and to have things out that I can touch and hold. The kids ask more questions and we are able to talk about him more and remember how it was to have him here and look forward to when we will all be together again. On his birthday I took all the kids out of school at lunch time and took them for a picnic at the grave. We came home and made birthday cards for him and went and got balloons for his grave. We went to dinner that night and then went to fiesta fun. It was nice to spend the day doing fun things my kids all enjoyed and to make the day all about him. We have made it a tradition to go to the Temple every year on his death date and do sealings to help others become forever families. Every time we have gone the spirit has been so strong and I get such a strong sense of love from my Heavenly Father and my son Tatum. All we have now is pictures memories and the traditions we make a priority.Zeffiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15467585871583478613noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-530346987237142095.post-6137598552567849002012-03-31T21:16:00.000-07:002012-03-31T21:16:36.450-07:00<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/-yH2YPkjjb0U/T3fSqt5E2tI/AAAAAAAAAuo/Nxu9e2enatY/s1600/226.JPG" imageanchor="1"><img border="0" height="240" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/-yH2YPkjjb0U/T3fSqt5E2tI/AAAAAAAAAuo/Nxu9e2enatY/s320/226.JPG" width="320" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">For Tatum's 2nd Birthday we Cleaned the stone and repainted the black lettering. It's crazy what the hard water does to those grave stones! It hasn't been there a year yet but after we repainted the letters black and scrubbed off all of the hard water spots and polished it again it looked like a totally new stone.</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">Happy birthday buddy! We miss you so much. It is crazy to see little 2 year old boys running around giving their parents chaos and love. We wish you were here doing the same things! We are surrounded by 2 year old boys- Graham (Still close by picture updates) Jaxon, Issac, Taegan, 2 year old boys of our close friends and family, all with close birthdays, it doesn't seem fair that you can't be here with the gang. We love you and can't wait to be with you again!</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br />
</div><br />
<script>
document.write(unescape("%3Cstyle%20type%3D%22text/css%22%3E%0Abody%20%7B background-image %3A%20url%28%22http%3A//i342.photobucket.com/albums/o401/Thecutestblogontheblock/showermecopy.jpg %22%29%3B%20background-position%3A%20center%3B%20background-repeat%3A%20no-repeat%3B%20 background-attachment %3A%20fixed%3B%20%7D%0A%3C/style%3E%0A%3Cdiv%20id%3D%22tag%22%20 style%3D%22position%3Aabsolute %3B%20left%3A0px%3B%20top%3A30px%3B%20z-index%3A50%3B%20 width%3A150px%3B%20height%3A45px%3B%22%3E%0A%3Ca%20href%3D%22 http%3A//www.thecutestblogontheblock.com%22%20target%3D%22_blank%22%3E%0A%3Cimg%20src %3D%22http%3A//www.thecutestblogontheblock.com/images/tag.png%22%20border%3D%220%22/ %3E%0A%3C/a%3E%3C/div%3E%20"));
</script>Zeffiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15467585871583478613noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-530346987237142095.post-34424597845008635582011-07-13T19:28:00.000-07:002011-07-13T19:28:28.649-07:00Headstone<div class="separator" style="border-bottom: medium none; border-left: medium none; border-right: medium none; border-top: medium none; clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/-U3xjuhcE7iw/Th4QBKnuHcI/AAAAAAAAAkQ/cYoWWzvw8G4/s1600/April-june+2011+113.JPG" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="240" m$="true" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/-U3xjuhcE7iw/Th4QBKnuHcI/AAAAAAAAAkQ/cYoWWzvw8G4/s320/April-june+2011+113.JPG" width="320" /></a><a href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/-WJh1hcD4hQI/Th4Q3eXr_PI/AAAAAAAAAkY/jETZWXzvozc/s1600/April-june+2011+110.JPG" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="240" m$="true" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/-WJh1hcD4hQI/Th4Q3eXr_PI/AAAAAAAAAkY/jETZWXzvozc/s320/April-june+2011+110.JPG" width="320" /></a>We finally got the right headstone after much waiting and we love it! It turned out great!</div><br />
<div class="separator" style="border-bottom: medium none; border-left: medium none; border-right: medium none; border-top: medium none; clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/-c9Ly8olrOMM/Th4QexSTM6I/AAAAAAAAAkU/slPUJ-tWiq4/s1600/June+2011+078.JPG" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="240" m$="true" src="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/-c9Ly8olrOMM/Th4QexSTM6I/AAAAAAAAAkU/slPUJ-tWiq4/s320/June+2011+078.JPG" width="320" /></a>July decorations! And Tate's picture got put on the front.</div><div style="border-bottom: medium none; border-left: medium none; border-right: medium none; border-top: medium none;"><br />
</div><script>
document.write(unescape("%3Cstyle%20type%3D%22text/css%22%3E%0Abody%20%7B background-image %3A%20url%28%22http%3A//i342.photobucket.com/albums/o401/Thecutestblogontheblock/showermecopy.jpg %22%29%3B%20background-position%3A%20center%3B%20background-repeat%3A%20no-repeat%3B%20 background-attachment %3A%20fixed%3B%20%7D%0A%3C/style%3E%0A%3Cdiv%20id%3D%22tag%22%20 style%3D%22position%3Aabsolute %3B%20left%3A0px%3B%20top%3A30px%3B%20z-index%3A50%3B%20 width%3A150px%3B%20height%3A45px%3B%22%3E%0A%3Ca%20href%3D%22 http%3A//www.thecutestblogontheblock.com%22%20target%3D%22_blank%22%3E%0A%3Cimg%20src %3D%22http%3A//www.thecutestblogontheblock.com/images/tag.png%22%20border%3D%220%22/ %3E%0A%3C/a%3E%3C/div%3E%20"));
</script>Zeffiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15467585871583478613noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-530346987237142095.post-91317672623710815932011-03-26T22:09:00.000-07:002011-03-26T22:09:08.557-07:00I remember the way you looked at me,<br />
Your blue eyes would open wide for me to see.<br />
You know I'll always be missin' you,<br />
And though it's hard you know I'll make it through.<br />
<br />
You are the one thing that I adore,<br />
The one thing I know is worth dying for.<br />
I'm so, so sorry for the way,<br />
Things turned out that day in May.<br />
<br />
I can still see the snow as clear as day,<br />
I close my eyes and I just drift away.<br />
Though it's dark my eyes can see,<br />
The sunshine your spirit poured back into me.<br />
<br />
I still feel your love surrounding me,<br />
And though you're gone your peace is here with me.<br />
I'm so, so sorry for the way<br />
Things turned out that day in May.<br />
But I'm so, so glad that I can say,<br />
I'll see you my love, I'll see you again some day.<script>
document.write(unescape("%3Cstyle%20type%3D%22text/css%22%3E%0Abody%20%7B background-image %3A%20url%28%22http%3A//i342.photobucket.com/albums/o401/Thecutestblogontheblock/showermecopy.jpg %22%29%3B%20background-position%3A%20center%3B%20background-repeat%3A%20no-repeat%3B%20 background-attachment %3A%20fixed%3B%20%7D%0A%3C/style%3E%0A%3Cdiv%20id%3D%22tag%22%20 style%3D%22position%3Aabsolute %3B%20left%3A0px%3B%20top%3A30px%3B%20z-index%3A50%3B%20 width%3A150px%3B%20height%3A45px%3B%22%3E%0A%3Ca%20href%3D%22 http%3A//www.thecutestblogontheblock.com%22%20target%3D%22_blank%22%3E%0A%3Cimg%20src %3D%22http%3A//www.thecutestblogontheblock.com/images/tag.png%22%20border%3D%220%22/ %3E%0A%3C/a%3E%3C/div%3E%20"));
</script>Zeffiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15467585871583478613noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-530346987237142095.post-28377970929675370192011-03-26T22:03:00.000-07:002011-03-26T22:03:11.097-07:00<div class="separator" style="border-bottom: medium none; border-left: medium none; border-right: medium none; border-top: medium none; clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/-pQxaSQDcPZY/TY6_gOw7B6I/AAAAAAAAAik/7uPIwKEpZXs/s1600/tate%2527s+first+birthday+008.JPG" imageanchor="1" style="clear: left; cssfloat: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="150" r6="true" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/-pQxaSQDcPZY/TY6_gOw7B6I/AAAAAAAAAik/7uPIwKEpZXs/s200/tate%2527s+first+birthday+008.JPG" width="200" /></a><a href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/-b96dHq5o2Dc/TY6-7yRMNRI/AAAAAAAAAiY/RPv92_o-b5M/s1600/tate%2527s+first+birthday+001.JPG" imageanchor="1" style="clear: left; cssfloat: left; float: left; height: 176px; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em; width: 205px;"><img border="0" height="150" r6="true" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/-b96dHq5o2Dc/TY6-7yRMNRI/AAAAAAAAAiY/RPv92_o-b5M/s200/tate%2527s+first+birthday+001.JPG" width="200" /></a></div><div style="border-bottom: medium none; border-left: medium none; border-right: medium none; border-top: medium none;"><br />
</div><div style="border-bottom: medium none; border-left: medium none; border-right: medium none; border-top: medium none;"><a href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/--sQjjGKw-ZE/TY7A9qX77yI/AAAAAAAAAjA/SafyJLNixhA/s1600/tate%2527s+first+birthday+025.JPG" imageanchor="1" style="clear: right; cssfloat: right; float: right; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-left: 1em;"><img border="0" height="240" r6="true" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/--sQjjGKw-ZE/TY7A9qX77yI/AAAAAAAAAjA/SafyJLNixhA/s320/tate%2527s+first+birthday+025.JPG" width="320" /></a><a href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/-KeNvTztF4OU/TY7BwEnMLLI/AAAAAAAAAjQ/7WxVcnYtf6s/s1600/tate%2527s+first+birthday+036.JPG" imageanchor="1" style="clear: right; cssfloat: right; float: right; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-left: 1em;"><img border="0" height="150" r6="true" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/-KeNvTztF4OU/TY7BwEnMLLI/AAAAAAAAAjQ/7WxVcnYtf6s/s200/tate%2527s+first+birthday+036.JPG" width="200" /></a><a href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/-JNHh7o_oSGA/TY7AIFGGI6I/AAAAAAAAAiw/6k3LfI0DP6I/s1600/tate%2527s+first+birthday+013.JPG" imageanchor="1" style="clear: right; cssfloat: right; float: right; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-left: 1em;"><img border="0" height="200" r6="true" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/-JNHh7o_oSGA/TY7AIFGGI6I/AAAAAAAAAiw/6k3LfI0DP6I/s200/tate%2527s+first+birthday+013.JPG" style="cursor: move;" unselectable="on" width="150" /></a><a href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/-blEq3tyvDwE/TY6_UxXBJLI/AAAAAAAAAig/jcVpszknixA/s1600/tate%2527s+first+birthday+005.JPG" imageanchor="1" style="clear: right; cssfloat: right; float: right; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-left: 1em;"><img border="0" height="240" r6="true" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/-blEq3tyvDwE/TY6_UxXBJLI/AAAAAAAAAig/jcVpszknixA/s320/tate%2527s+first+birthday+005.JPG" width="320" /></a> </div><div style="border-bottom: medium none; border-left: medium none; border-right: medium none; border-top: medium none;"><br />
</div><div class="separator" style="border-bottom: medium none; border-left: medium none; border-right: medium none; border-top: medium none; clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/-S4qM6XJHgdE/TY6_xbAsGII/AAAAAAAAAio/xESp9_AE9Es/s1600/tate%2527s+first+birthday+010.JPG" imageanchor="1" style="clear: left; cssfloat: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="150" r6="true" src="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/-S4qM6XJHgdE/TY6_xbAsGII/AAAAAAAAAio/xESp9_AE9Es/s200/tate%2527s+first+birthday+010.JPG" width="200" /></a></div><div style="border-bottom: medium none; border-left: medium none; border-right: medium none; border-top: medium none;"><br />
</div><div style="border-bottom: medium none; border-left: medium none; border-right: medium none; border-top: medium none;"><br />
</div><div style="border-bottom: medium none; border-left: medium none; border-right: medium none; border-top: medium none;"><a href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/-FpDpvNlwmJg/TY7AyQ9sq5I/AAAAAAAAAi8/KcEN7Hxa_eg/s1600/tate%2527s+first+birthday+019.JPG" imageanchor="1" style="clear: right; cssfloat: right; float: right; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-left: 1em;"><img border="0" height="150" r6="true" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/-FpDpvNlwmJg/TY7AyQ9sq5I/AAAAAAAAAi8/KcEN7Hxa_eg/s200/tate%2527s+first+birthday+019.JPG" width="200" /></a> </div><div class="separator" style="border-bottom: medium none; border-left: medium none; border-right: medium none; border-top: medium none; clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/-7JvF7Ikhm6E/TY6_8wY5DVI/AAAAAAAAAis/dzV5FJ5ehgc/s1600/tate%2527s+first+birthday+011.JPG" imageanchor="1" style="clear: right; cssfloat: right; float: right; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-left: 1em;"><img border="0" height="150" r6="true" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/-7JvF7Ikhm6E/TY6_8wY5DVI/AAAAAAAAAis/dzV5FJ5ehgc/s200/tate%2527s+first+birthday+011.JPG" width="200" /></a><a href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/-_rzVOaFmO4U/TY7ATFbdNXI/AAAAAAAAAi0/ooS697iqxgc/s1600/tate%2527s+first+birthday+016.JPG" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="320" r6="true" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/-_rzVOaFmO4U/TY7ATFbdNXI/AAAAAAAAAi0/ooS697iqxgc/s320/tate%2527s+first+birthday+016.JPG" width="240" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="border-bottom: medium none; border-left: medium none; border-right: medium none; border-top: medium none; clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/-KtfDMXlYDDI/TY7Am0YbD2I/AAAAAAAAAi4/QyQXmqiufuc/s1600/tate%2527s+first+birthday+017.JPG" imageanchor="1" style="clear: left; cssfloat: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="150" r6="true" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/-KtfDMXlYDDI/TY7Am0YbD2I/AAAAAAAAAi4/QyQXmqiufuc/s200/tate%2527s+first+birthday+017.JPG" width="200" /></a></div><div style="border-bottom: medium none; border-left: medium none; border-right: medium none; border-top: medium none;"><br />
</div><br />
<br />
<div class="separator" style="border-bottom: medium none; border-left: medium none; border-right: medium none; border-top: medium none; clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/-AXG9UAuZiF4/TY6_I8lJjMI/AAAAAAAAAic/KsQNjEnp9BE/s1600/tate%2527s+first+birthday+002.JPG" imageanchor="1" style="clear: right; cssfloat: right; float: right; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-left: 1em;"><img border="0" height="150" r6="true" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/-AXG9UAuZiF4/TY6_I8lJjMI/AAAAAAAAAic/KsQNjEnp9BE/s200/tate%2527s+first+birthday+002.JPG" width="200" /></a><a href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/-L6VKT00vOHU/TY7BZPyI3VI/AAAAAAAAAjI/3N4tCzhJWmA/s1600/tate%2527s+first+birthday+030.JPG" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="240" r6="true" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/-L6VKT00vOHU/TY7BZPyI3VI/AAAAAAAAAjI/3N4tCzhJWmA/s320/tate%2527s+first+birthday+030.JPG" width="320" /></a></div><div style="border-bottom: medium none; border-left: medium none; border-right: medium none; border-top: medium none;"><a href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/-oUlWInjewhU/TY7BJMyWMoI/AAAAAAAAAjE/rHsZNedKImU/s1600/tate%2527s+first+birthday+027.JPG" imageanchor="1" style="clear: right; cssfloat: right; float: right; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-left: 1em;"><img border="0" height="150" r6="true" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/-oUlWInjewhU/TY7BJMyWMoI/AAAAAAAAAjE/rHsZNedKImU/s200/tate%2527s+first+birthday+027.JPG" width="200" /></a> </div><div style="border-bottom: medium none; border-left: medium none; border-right: medium none; border-top: medium none;"><br />
</div><div class="separator" style="border-bottom: medium none; border-left: medium none; border-right: medium none; border-top: medium none; clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/-25tOpOBcvsU/TY7BkT13MgI/AAAAAAAAAjM/lN7ezNTUDVs/s1600/tate%2527s+first+birthday+032.JPG" imageanchor="1" style="clear: left; cssfloat: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="200" r6="true" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/-25tOpOBcvsU/TY7BkT13MgI/AAAAAAAAAjM/lN7ezNTUDVs/s200/tate%2527s+first+birthday+032.JPG" width="150" /></a></div><div style="border-bottom: medium none; border-left: medium none; border-right: medium none; border-top: medium none;"><a href="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/-ryvCLKsy32k/TY7B7S5F7gI/AAAAAAAAAjU/vQAyKDNEfZ8/s1600/tate%2527s+first+birthday+039.JPG" imageanchor="1" style="clear: right; cssfloat: right; float: right; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-left: 1em;"><img border="0" height="150" r6="true" src="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/-ryvCLKsy32k/TY7B7S5F7gI/AAAAAAAAAjU/vQAyKDNEfZ8/s200/tate%2527s+first+birthday+039.JPG" width="200" /></a> </div><div style="border-bottom: medium none; border-left: medium none; border-right: medium none; border-top: medium none;">So today for Tate's birthday we went to IHOP for breakfast and had planned on going to Snow Canyon Park to hike and have a picnic, but the weather wasn't coordinating with our plans. Once the rain cleared up we did end up going to the family farm and having a hot dog roast and just hanging out with the family. We then went to Tate's grave and wrote our birthday messages on some balloons and tied the balloons to his cute flower basket that Grandma and Grandpa E. gave him. <script>
document.write(unescape("%3Cstyle%20type%3D%22text/css%22%3E%0Abody%20%7B background-image %3A%20url%28%22http%3A//i342.photobucket.com/albums/o401/Thecutestblogontheblock/showermecopy.jpg %22%29%3B%20background-position%3A%20center%3B%20background-repeat%3A%20no-repeat%3B%20 background-attachment %3A%20fixed%3B%20%7D%0A%3C/style%3E%0A%3Cdiv%20id%3D%22tag%22%20 style%3D%22position%3Aabsolute %3B%20left%3A0px%3B%20top%3A30px%3B%20z-index%3A50%3B%20 width%3A150px%3B%20height%3A45px%3B%22%3E%0A%3Ca%20href%3D%22 http%3A//www.thecutestblogontheblock.com%22%20target%3D%22_blank%22%3E%0A%3Cimg%20src %3D%22http%3A//www.thecutestblogontheblock.com/images/tag.png%22%20border%3D%220%22/ %3E%0A%3C/a%3E%3C/div%3E%20"));
</script> </div><img height="96" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/-JNHh7o_oSGA/TY7AIFGGI6I/AAAAAAAAAiw/6k3LfI0DP6I/s200/tate%2527s+first+birthday+013.JPG" style="filter: alpha(opacity=30); left: 594px; mozopacity: 0.3; opacity: 0.3; position: absolute; top: 251px; visibility: hidden;" width="72" /> <div class="separator" style="border-bottom: medium none; border-left: medium none; border-right: medium none; border-top: medium none; clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/-FpDpvNlwmJg/TY7AyQ9sq5I/AAAAAAAAAi8/KcEN7Hxa_eg/s1600/tate%2527s+first+birthday+019.JPG" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="72" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/-FpDpvNlwmJg/TY7AyQ9sq5I/AAAAAAAAAi8/KcEN7Hxa_eg/s200/tate%2527s+first+birthday+019.JPG" style="filter: alpha(opacity=30); left: 480px; mozopacity: 0.3; opacity: 0.3; position: absolute; top: 216px; visibility: hidden;" width="96" /></a></div>Zeffiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15467585871583478613noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-530346987237142095.post-5434192359886373052011-03-26T08:11:00.000-07:002011-03-26T08:11:51.363-07:00One yearOne year ago today my life was turned upside down by the beautiful baby boy I was blessed to be able to call my son. I had no clue what this amazing little spirit that was inside me was going to do for me! He has changed me so much and continues to do so from the other side. I can't believe it's been a whole year, and at the same time it seems a life time ago. <br />
The kids are so cute when they talk about him and what they remember. Olivia continues to pray for him every night and gets offended if anyone else forgets to mention him in their prayers. Asher loves to look at the pictures and talk about how things will be when we get to be together again. Avaree likes to go with us to the grave and every time we drive away, she waves at the grave and says "bye baby Tatum! I love you." We all are missing him so much and it seems that the pain gets easier with time, but occasionally it comes back full fledged and consumes me. I am so grateful for all of the pictures and memories I have with him and can't wait for more to come! I love you Tate!<script>
document.write(unescape("%3Cstyle%20type%3D%22text/css%22%3E%0Abody%20%7B background-image %3A%20url%28%22http%3A//i342.photobucket.com/albums/o401/Thecutestblogontheblock/showermecopy.jpg %22%29%3B%20background-position%3A%20center%3B%20background-repeat%3A%20no-repeat%3B%20 background-attachment %3A%20fixed%3B%20%7D%0A%3C/style%3E%0A%3Cdiv%20id%3D%22tag%22%20 style%3D%22position%3Aabsolute %3B%20left%3A0px%3B%20top%3A30px%3B%20z-index%3A50%3B%20 width%3A150px%3B%20height%3A45px%3B%22%3E%0A%3Ca%20href%3D%22 http%3A//www.thecutestblogontheblock.com%22%20target%3D%22_blank%22%3E%0A%3Cimg%20src %3D%22http%3A//www.thecutestblogontheblock.com/images/tag.png%22%20border%3D%220%22/ %3E%0A%3C/a%3E%3C/div%3E%20"));
</script>Zeffiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15467585871583478613noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-530346987237142095.post-67172076529477465342011-03-26T08:00:00.000-07:002011-03-26T08:00:27.913-07:00<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://lh5.googleusercontent.com/-E2zTqhgo6ls/TY39BzSw1MI/AAAAAAAAAiE/sXUX66vxucs/s1600/feb-mar+2011+040.JPG" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="240" r6="true" src="https://lh5.googleusercontent.com/-E2zTqhgo6ls/TY39BzSw1MI/AAAAAAAAAiE/sXUX66vxucs/s320/feb-mar+2011+040.JPG" width="320" /></a></div><br />
<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://lh5.googleusercontent.com/-HpwgUleGMrc/TY3-rumRHpI/AAAAAAAAAiQ/CkDXoPZfjSI/s1600/feb-mar+2011+041.JPG" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="320" r6="true" src="https://lh5.googleusercontent.com/-HpwgUleGMrc/TY3-rumRHpI/AAAAAAAAAiQ/CkDXoPZfjSI/s320/feb-mar+2011+041.JPG" width="240" /></a></div><br />
<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://lh3.googleusercontent.com/-q4kMI7Mn7lw/TY3-6KL5VhI/AAAAAAAAAiU/OsYhZ2Q6_UI/s1600/feb-mar+2011+042.JPG" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="320" r6="true" src="https://lh3.googleusercontent.com/-q4kMI7Mn7lw/TY3-6KL5VhI/AAAAAAAAAiU/OsYhZ2Q6_UI/s320/feb-mar+2011+042.JPG" width="240" /></a></div>I didn't get pictures of Valentines day but we did decorate with a really cute heart wreath and valentines from us and the kids. We love keeping his grave updated! These are the decorations for St. Patricks Day, we hung decorative clovers on the posts too with notes from us on them. <br />
<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"></div><script>
document.write(unescape("%3Cstyle%20type%3D%22text/css%22%3E%0Abody%20%7B background-image %3A%20url%28%22http%3A//i342.photobucket.com/albums/o401/Thecutestblogontheblock/showermecopy.jpg %22%29%3B%20background-position%3A%20center%3B%20background-repeat%3A%20no-repeat%3B%20 background-attachment %3A%20fixed%3B%20%7D%0A%3C/style%3E%0A%3Cdiv%20id%3D%22tag%22%20 style%3D%22position%3Aabsolute %3B%20left%3A0px%3B%20top%3A30px%3B%20z-index%3A50%3B%20 width%3A150px%3B%20height%3A45px%3B%22%3E%0A%3Ca%20href%3D%22 http%3A//www.thecutestblogontheblock.com%22%20target%3D%22_blank%22%3E%0A%3Cimg%20src %3D%22http%3A//www.thecutestblogontheblock.com/images/tag.png%22%20border%3D%220%22/ %3E%0A%3C/a%3E%3C/div%3E%20"));
</script>Zeffiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15467585871583478613noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-530346987237142095.post-65890930242966188302010-12-28T11:07:00.000-08:002010-12-28T11:07:27.120-08:00My First Christmas in HeavenI see the countless Christmas Trees around the world below<br />
With tiny lights, like Heaven's stars, reflecting in the snow.<br />
The sight is so spectacular, please wipe away that tear,<br />
For I am spending Christmas with Jesus Christ this year.<br />
<br />
I hear the many Christmas songs that people hold so dear,<br />
But the sounds of music can't compare with the Christmas Choir up here.<br />
I have no words to tell you, but the joy their voices bring,<br />
For it is beyond description to hear the Angels sing.<br />
<br />
I know how much you miss me, I see the pain inside your heart<br />
But I am not so far away, we really aren't apart.<br />
So be happy for me my dear ones, you know I hold you dear,<br />
And be glad I'm spending Christmas with Jesus Christ this year.<br />
<br />
I send you each a special gift from my heavenly home above,<br />
I send you each a memory of my undying Love.<br />
After all, "LOVE" is the gift more precious than pure gold,<br />
It was always most important in the stories Jesus told.<br />
<br />
Please love and keep each other, as our Father said to do,<br />
For I can't count the blessings or Love He has for you.<br />
So have a Merry Christmas and wipe away that tear,<br />
Remember, I'm spending Christmas with Jesus Christ this year.<script>
document.write(unescape("%3Cstyle%20type%3D%22text/css%22%3E%0Abody%20%7B background-image %3A%20url%28%22http%3A//i342.photobucket.com/albums/o401/Thecutestblogontheblock/showermecopy.jpg %22%29%3B%20background-position%3A%20center%3B%20background-repeat%3A%20no-repeat%3B%20 background-attachment %3A%20fixed%3B%20%7D%0A%3C/style%3E%0A%3Cdiv%20id%3D%22tag%22%20 style%3D%22position%3Aabsolute %3B%20left%3A0px%3B%20top%3A30px%3B%20z-index%3A50%3B%20 width%3A150px%3B%20height%3A45px%3B%22%3E%0A%3Ca%20href%3D%22 http%3A//www.thecutestblogontheblock.com%22%20target%3D%22_blank%22%3E%0A%3Cimg%20src %3D%22http%3A//www.thecutestblogontheblock.com/images/tag.png%22%20border%3D%220%22/ %3E%0A%3C/a%3E%3C/div%3E%20"));
</script>Zeffiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15467585871583478613noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-530346987237142095.post-25257414155665636462010-12-26T10:16:00.000-08:002010-12-26T10:18:20.767-08:00Holidays with Tate<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_ogEOiGbJxcs/TRd_MKHnZRI/AAAAAAAAAhg/SMIp2VuJitc/s1600/Nov-Dec+2010+009.JPG" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="240" n4="true" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_ogEOiGbJxcs/TRd_MKHnZRI/AAAAAAAAAhg/SMIp2VuJitc/s320/Nov-Dec+2010+009.JPG" width="320" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">We had a really cute scarecrow and fall flowers with a hay bail but when the cemetery did their clean up we weren't aware of it and they took all of Tatum's stuff so this is what we got to replace it. It's cute but not as cute as the other stuff. I just wish I would have gotten a picture before it had been taken.</div><br />
<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_ogEOiGbJxcs/TRd_bFoJbfI/AAAAAAAAAhk/BVkna6zqjo4/s1600/Nov-Dec+2010+012.JPG" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="240" n4="true" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_ogEOiGbJxcs/TRd_bFoJbfI/AAAAAAAAAhk/BVkna6zqjo4/s320/Nov-Dec+2010+012.JPG" width="320" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">The day after Thanksgiving we went and gave him his own tree and stuffed reindeer and some solar Christmas candy cane lights.</div><br />
<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_ogEOiGbJxcs/TRd_o9tWH1I/AAAAAAAAAho/Pnn86CuIUyk/s1600/Nov-Dec+2010+027.JPG" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="320" n4="true" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_ogEOiGbJxcs/TRd_o9tWH1I/AAAAAAAAAho/Pnn86CuIUyk/s320/Nov-Dec+2010+027.JPG" width="240" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">On Christmas Eve we all decorated ornaments for his tree and took them over to him. The kids loved decorating the tree.</div><br />
<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_ogEOiGbJxcs/TRd_3P8G3OI/AAAAAAAAAhs/NsqTNQloBeg/s1600/Nov-Dec+2010+029.JPG" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="320" n4="true" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_ogEOiGbJxcs/TRd_3P8G3OI/AAAAAAAAAhs/NsqTNQloBeg/s320/Nov-Dec+2010+029.JPG" width="240" /></a></div><br />
<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_ogEOiGbJxcs/TReAFikuwwI/AAAAAAAAAhw/mflsUZmxhQM/s1600/Nov-Dec+2010+037.JPG" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="240" n4="true" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_ogEOiGbJxcs/TReAFikuwwI/AAAAAAAAAhw/mflsUZmxhQM/s320/Nov-Dec+2010+037.JPG" width="320" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">This is the finished product! They did a great job and it put us in great Christmas spirits to be able to do something for Tatum.</div><div class="separator" style="border-bottom: medium none; border-left: medium none; border-right: medium none; border-top: medium none; clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_ogEOiGbJxcs/TReFm-iOZRI/AAAAAAAAAh8/sruF4fDUviY/s1600/Christmas+2010+014.JPG" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="240" n4="true" src="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_ogEOiGbJxcs/TReFm-iOZRI/AAAAAAAAAh8/sruF4fDUviY/s320/Christmas+2010+014.JPG" width="320" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_ogEOiGbJxcs/TReFPKJALtI/AAAAAAAAAh0/9hxm3oiRGF8/s1600/Christmas+2010+011.JPG" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="320" n4="true" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_ogEOiGbJxcs/TReFPKJALtI/AAAAAAAAAh0/9hxm3oiRGF8/s320/Christmas+2010+011.JPG" width="240" /></a></div><div style="border-bottom: medium none; border-left: medium none; border-right: medium none; border-top: medium none;"><br />
</div><div class="separator" style="border-bottom: medium none; border-left: medium none; border-right: medium none; border-top: medium none; clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_ogEOiGbJxcs/TReFbJDFuXI/AAAAAAAAAh4/AIDlS6j3OGQ/s1600/Christmas+2010+012.JPG" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="320" n4="true" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_ogEOiGbJxcs/TReFbJDFuXI/AAAAAAAAAh4/AIDlS6j3OGQ/s320/Christmas+2010+012.JPG" width="240" /></a></div><div style="border-bottom: medium none; border-left: medium none; border-right: medium none; border-top: medium none;"><br />
</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">We also made it a new family tradition since we can't put actual gifts for Tatum in his stocking we've decided to have everyone on Christmas Eve write down a service they have done during the Christmas season and put it in Tatum's stocking and those are our gifts to him.</div><script>
document.write(unescape("%3Cstyle%20type%3D%22text/css%22%3E%0Abody%20%7B background-image %3A%20url%28%22http%3A//i342.photobucket.com/albums/o401/Thecutestblogontheblock/showermecopy.jpg %22%29%3B%20background-position%3A%20center%3B%20background-repeat%3A%20no-repeat%3B%20 background-attachment %3A%20fixed%3B%20%7D%0A%3C/style%3E%0A%3Cdiv%20id%3D%22tag%22%20 style%3D%22position%3Aabsolute %3B%20left%3A0px%3B%20top%3A30px%3B%20z-index%3A50%3B%20 width%3A150px%3B%20height%3A45px%3B%22%3E%0A%3Ca%20href%3D%22 http%3A//www.thecutestblogontheblock.com%22%20target%3D%22_blank%22%3E%0A%3Cimg%20src %3D%22http%3A//www.thecutestblogontheblock.com/images/tag.png%22%20border%3D%220%22/ %3E%0A%3C/a%3E%3C/div%3E%20"));
</script>Zeffiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15467585871583478613noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-530346987237142095.post-78108470364804928042010-08-06T13:37:00.000-07:002010-08-06T13:38:26.702-07:00<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_ogEOiGbJxcs/TFxyV4B8G3I/AAAAAAAAAew/2DskQOLJzcY/s1600/dad+133.JPG" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" bx="true" height="213" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_ogEOiGbJxcs/TFxyV4B8G3I/AAAAAAAAAew/2DskQOLJzcY/s320/dad+133.JPG" width="320" /></a></div><script>
document.write(unescape("%3Cstyle%20type%3D%22text/css%22%3E%0Abody%20%7B background-image %3A%20url%28%22http%3A//i342.photobucket.com/albums/o401/Thecutestblogontheblock/showermecopy.jpg %22%29%3B%20background-position%3A%20center%3B%20background-repeat%3A%20no-repeat%3B%20 background-attachment %3A%20fixed%3B%20%7D%0A%3C/style%3E%0A%3Cdiv%20id%3D%22tag%22%20 style%3D%22position%3Aabsolute %3B%20left%3A0px%3B%20top%3A30px%3B%20z-index%3A50%3B%20 width%3A150px%3B%20height%3A45px%3B%22%3E%0A%3Ca%20href%3D%22 http%3A//www.thecutestblogontheblock.com%22%20target%3D%22_blank%22%3E%0A%3Cimg%20src %3D%22http%3A//www.thecutestblogontheblock.com/images/tag.png%22%20border%3D%220%22/ %3E%0A%3C/a%3E%3C/div%3E%20"));
</script>Zeffiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15467585871583478613noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-530346987237142095.post-89164475773518669582010-08-06T13:33:00.000-07:002010-08-06T13:33:17.815-07:0019 weeks ago my precious baby Tatum was born. 5 weeks and 6 days later he passed away and life hasn't been the same since. I'm grateful to say that we have learned and grown so much from this experience. It has brought my family closer to our Father in heaven. We are stronger as a family and as much as we miss Tatum, we are so grateful for the grace of God and the way he has helped us through this most difficult trial. My kids have a strong testimony of their Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ and they know that we will be with Tatum again. We miss him so much, but we are so grateful that we'll be with him again. Our family is forever.<script>
document.write(unescape("%3Cstyle%20type%3D%22text/css%22%3E%0Abody%20%7B background-image %3A%20url%28%22http%3A//i342.photobucket.com/albums/o401/Thecutestblogontheblock/showermecopy.jpg %22%29%3B%20background-position%3A%20center%3B%20background-repeat%3A%20no-repeat%3B%20 background-attachment %3A%20fixed%3B%20%7D%0A%3C/style%3E%0A%3Cdiv%20id%3D%22tag%22%20 style%3D%22position%3Aabsolute %3B%20left%3A0px%3B%20top%3A30px%3B%20z-index%3A50%3B%20 width%3A150px%3B%20height%3A45px%3B%22%3E%0A%3Ca%20href%3D%22 http%3A//www.thecutestblogontheblock.com%22%20target%3D%22_blank%22%3E%0A%3Cimg%20src %3D%22http%3A//www.thecutestblogontheblock.com/images/tag.png%22%20border%3D%220%22/ %3E%0A%3C/a%3E%3C/div%3E%20"));
</script>Zeffiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15467585871583478613noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-530346987237142095.post-11689129375167967042010-05-22T20:00:00.000-07:002010-05-22T20:09:04.675-07:00If any one of you have any stories that you can share with me about Tatum or how he has touched your lives or anything that has anything to do with anything that I might not have remembered to write down or that I don't know about. Really anything. I am putting together a keepsake journal/scrapbook of him his life and how he changed others, and I really want to have many peoples points of views. I received my midwifes version of the birth story and I had totally forgotten some of the things she wrote about and it was nice to have her side of the story as well. I liked her feelings and emotions that I couldn't have ever known about had she not written them down and given them to me. I don't care if you think it's small and insignificant, it doesn't even have to be about me and Tate, maybe just something that his life inspired you to do or change. It would really mean a lot to me. Just e-mail it to me at <a href="mailto:zeffie_13@hotmail.com">zeffie_13@hotmail.com</a>. Thanks!Zeffiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15467585871583478613noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-530346987237142095.post-21047535049403512102010-05-08T12:07:00.000-07:002010-05-08T12:14:23.957-07:00Funeral for Tate.Tatum has left us here on earth and we will miss him dearly. He has done so much for us in such a small amount of time. Thank you all for your love and support. I pray he has touched your lives as much as he has ours. I am glad to have been able to share him and his story through this blog. It is a great reminder for me to be able to look back at all he has gone through and how blessed we have been. The funeral for Tatum will be on Wednesday may 12th at 11 am. The viewing is from 9:30-10:30 am at Spilsbury Mortuary. Thank all of you so much for the love and prayers you've given for us. We love you all.Zeffiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15467585871583478613noreply@blogger.com7tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-530346987237142095.post-65449572644715205102010-05-06T14:27:00.000-07:002010-05-06T14:33:40.466-07:00We are so blessed to have so many friends and family supporting us through this hard time in our lives. We have been so blessed to have such an amazing spirit sent to us and know that his place in the kingdom of heaven is secure! He is such an amazing strong spirit and we will miss him dearly! It has been nice to have today and yesterday to say goodbye to him. He is on life support until tonight and when we feel comforted in letting him return to our loving Heavenly Father we will remove the ventilator and heart medication. Thank all of you for your continuous prayers on our behalf. We are so blessed because of him and all of you! We will hold a funeral for him and keep you posted on when it will be and where. Thank you all for your love and support! We hope to keep all of these memories with our precious angel close to our heart for all time!Zeffiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15467585871583478613noreply@blogger.com6tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-530346987237142095.post-32733761714143491602010-05-06T07:23:00.000-07:002010-05-06T07:26:19.639-07:00Goodbye TatumThe Angel of the book of life wrote down my baby's birth, and whispered as she closed the book, "Too beautiful for earth..."Zeffiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15467585871583478613noreply@blogger.com19tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-530346987237142095.post-68053962880740227822010-05-04T21:33:00.001-07:002010-05-04T22:13:02.037-07:00Okay so today we realized that we haven't given an official list of everything that is wrong with our precious Tatum, so here goes; he has a cleft lip and pallet, abnormal outer ears, only one kidney, absent gall bladder, spinal deformation with a possibility of scoliosis, a heart condition called an unbalanced atrioventricular septal defect with decreased function of the right ventrical, a leaky av valve and aortic coarctation and aortic atresia (his heart is really sick). He also had a tracheoesophgeal fistula (tef) that was repaired when he was 3 days old. He now has developed chylothorax. He also has developed asides in his abdomen. Having mentioned all that we would be ungrateful if we failed to mention all that is right with him. He has the most beautiful eyes that we have ever seen. They look deep blue like the sea, but the depth is more than just the color. It's a depth of emotion and feeling and passion and desire and most of all love. He has ten fingers and ten toes and two feet that would intimidate Bigfoot. His skin on a good day is pink and beautiful and rosy, and the spirit that Tatum is, in that little body, defies description. When I think of it the words that come to mind are; powerful, peaceful, strong, calm, loving, pure, and compassionate. He has consumed our thoughts and our hearts as we fall more in love with him every day and he has turned our world upside down and we feel so blessed that he chose to come to us and let us be a part of this miracle that is Tatum. Despite all his physical disadvantages, to us, he is perfect.Zeffiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15467585871583478613noreply@blogger.com7tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-530346987237142095.post-88222222357056157882010-05-04T16:50:00.001-07:002010-05-04T22:20:44.202-07:00Today has been the craziest day since we've been here. Every 30 minutes someone new is coming to talk to me. Cardiologists have been in twice to let me know where they are at and what they are waiting for from tests and just checking on Tate, which is weird. Cardiologists are like a mythical creature rare to be seen in this hospital I swear! He has had 2 different ultrasounds. One durring a procedure to put in a chest tube and tap some fluid out of his abdomen, and the other ultrasound was to check his liver again and look for his gall bladder. He doesn't have one of those, but it's nice to know that it's not causing any problems. He got 2 chest x-ray's and has had many blood tests. They are testing the fluid from his abdomen to see if it's the same thing as what is in the chest. If it is not the same thing then they will want to do a liver biopsy to see if his liver is failing. They said his liver tissue looked good still last week. I hope it's not failing as well. Cardiology doesn't think that the heart is causing all of these problems because in the last echo they did the function of the heart was still doing well with the medication he is on. Every one else is thinking that there is no other reason for this all to be happening except for the heart. We'll see. They continue to burn out his iv's on a continuous 12-24 hour basis. He is receiving calcium and it is really hard on their veins. They won't let the nurses poke him for an iv anymore. They have to call in the iv team that has a special light to help them find good veins. They are running out and would hope that they can get a central line put in during a surgery so he doesn't have to have all of these peripheral iv's. Earlier this afternoon the cardiologists and the surgeons and the neonatologist and nurse practitioner all met together to talk about Tatum and get on the same page with things. They all finally agreed to tap his abdomen and get a small sample of the liquid to test to see what it was. His bed side has been constantly surrounded by doctors and techs and many extra nurses. He had 2 full time nurses today all to himself, which was lucky because they have been running non stop since 8:00 this morning. I am glad they are finally doing something but I hate that it's taken so long and is all of the sudden so drastic!Zeffiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15467585871583478613noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-530346987237142095.post-14899610852559273822010-05-03T22:42:00.000-07:002010-05-03T22:46:56.764-07:00<a href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_ogEOiGbJxcs/S9-0rGtIG3I/AAAAAAAAAdw/SbHYxb7WDR0/s1600/P1040011.JPG"><img style="MARGIN: 0px 10px 10px 0px; WIDTH: 320px; FLOAT: left; HEIGHT: 240px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5467287125278333810" border="0" alt="" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_ogEOiGbJxcs/S9-0rGtIG3I/AAAAAAAAAdw/SbHYxb7WDR0/s320/P1040011.JPG" /></a><br /><div></div>Zeffiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15467585871583478613noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-530346987237142095.post-77749342373145356752010-05-03T19:00:00.000-07:002010-05-03T19:16:53.722-07:00Cardiology came by today to tell us that Tatum is no longer a surgical candidate. He has too many problems that they can't over look. They are going to talk to all of the other cardiologists and surgical staff in their conference on Wednesday morning to see what they think the best action will be to try and get him turned around. They know we are frustrated and upset that they didn't get him into surgery before all of this chylothorax (that's the right spelling) started showing up. I feel that as cardiologists they should have known that he was a priority and should have gotten him into surgery when he had a chance. They are still trying to be optimistic by telling us that there are some other options they can try but they want to get all the information presented at their conference and many different opinions before they give us all the options. I'm hoping that we still have a chance, but the way the nurses look at me and talk to me I feel as if there is a black cloud hanging over my head. I pray with all my heart that he will get to stay with me, and I am afraid to listen to what the spirit will say in fear that I won't like what it's telling me. I just want to hold onto him any way I can. I don't want him to go. Not like this. They let me hold him today which is totally against protocol since he's got his breathing tube and arterial line in. I'm glad to hold him, but I take that as another bad sign.Zeffiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15467585871583478613noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-530346987237142095.post-35663245583492812142010-05-02T20:24:00.000-07:002010-05-02T20:44:26.388-07:00They did a tap on the fluid that's in his chest cavity by his lung today. I couldn't believe how much fluid came out! There was a ton and they said that there is probably a liter in his abdomen as well. They won't tap that unless they have to. They tested the fluid that they pulled out to see what it was and where it was coming from. He has what is called kylothorax. (don't quote me on the spelling) It isn't a good thing. It's usually requires long term treatment. They don't know if he has it from having the TEF surgery or if it's from so much pressure on the abdomen and the problems with the heart. We will find out tomorrow morning (Monday) if cardiology will clear him for surgery or not. If he's not cleared then chances are that he will never get the surgery. I still want him to have the surgery because I know it's the only chance he has, but this makes it so much harder. I just want to hold him and be close to him. I love him so much and I pray that he'll be allowed to stay with us longer. Please pray for us! Thank you all for your support and love!Zeffiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15467585871583478613noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-530346987237142095.post-91420474614504832332010-04-30T14:28:00.000-07:002010-04-30T14:42:06.620-07:00Tate is 5 weeks old today! I can't believe that. He is 8lbs 2oz. The doctors and nurses are working on figuring out why his stomach is distended but they keep going back to the heart and thinking that's the problem. Right now his conjugated billy tests are showing a jump from .6 to a 6 in the last 5 days and his liver is large and looking swollen. They are doing tests to make sure he dosent have an infection in the liver and they have said that it could be doing what it's doing from being on his tpn for as long as he has been. They are ruling out everything they can so that on monday when they talk to the cardiologists they can say this is what has been done, we've looked into everything and it's the heart so he really needs the surgery asap. His nurse practitioner is saying that they probably won't push surgery back any farther unless it's an infection and he dosen't think that it is. We just keep praying that he can get his surgery and be able to have a good recovery. It's scary and with every passing day I grow closer to him and get to know him and what he likes and doesn't like. I love him so much more today than I did yesterday and I know I'll love him more tomorrow than I do today.Zeffiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15467585871583478613noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-530346987237142095.post-63733255980253201522010-04-29T17:47:00.000-07:002010-04-29T18:20:50.703-07:00Surgery When?<a href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_ogEOiGbJxcs/S9ov8g5czeI/AAAAAAAAAdo/7-OB9L-4t4E/s1600/tate+017.JPG"><img style="MARGIN: 0px 10px 10px 0px; WIDTH: 240px; FLOAT: left; HEIGHT: 320px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5465733814437072354" border="0" alt="" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_ogEOiGbJxcs/S9ov8g5czeI/AAAAAAAAAdo/7-OB9L-4t4E/s320/tate+017.JPG" /></a><br /><div><a href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_ogEOiGbJxcs/S9ov750EoMI/AAAAAAAAAdg/fGLj1E-KmnU/s1600/tate+010.JPG"><img style="MARGIN: 0px 10px 10px 0px; WIDTH: 320px; FLOAT: left; HEIGHT: 240px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5465733803945533634" border="0" alt="" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_ogEOiGbJxcs/S9ov750EoMI/AAAAAAAAAdg/fGLj1E-KmnU/s320/tate+010.JPG" /></a><br /><br /><div>Did I say Friday or Monday? Wrong again lets try Wednesday... we'll see. His stomach has been distending over the last week and are now starting to worry about it. First they thought that it was because he wasn't pooping, so they stopped feeding him and gave him some <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_0" class="blsp-spelling-corrected">suppositories</span>. That didn't help the stomach to go down, so they took x-ray's and found the bowels looked normal. The next thing they checked for was his heart to see if it was failing again. Usually when the heart is in failure it pumps too much blood to the liver which in turn puts out a lot of fluid, so they thought that might be the problem. Nope. His heart is still doing well on the medications he is on so that wasn't it either. They are now thinking that it is a thing called albumin. It's a small <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_1" class="blsp-spelling-corrected">protein</span> that can leak out of his veins and they tested his blood for that level and it was low. So they are giving him large doses of albumin and that is supposed to help suck the extra fluids back into the veins. It really sounds weird to me but that's how they explained it to me. If that <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_2" class="blsp-spelling-corrected">doesn't</span> work by tomorrow they will have the <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_3" class="blsp-spelling-corrected">gastric</span> intestinal team come look at his g.i. I am a little <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_4" class="blsp-spelling-corrected">exhausted</span> today with all of the wondering. He looks really good today and was so alert this morning for long periods of time. I love him so much and I just want him to get as well as possible so that he can get his surgery! He is such a fighter! And have I mentioned how cute he is and that pictures can't do justice for how cute he really is! He seriously is so cute!</div></div>Zeffiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15467585871583478613noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-530346987237142095.post-67965435950679901072010-04-28T14:59:00.000-07:002010-04-28T15:13:13.402-07:00Tate is doing really good today! He doesn't have any iv's in his feet. One of his hands you can at least hold, though it still has an iv in it, it's not all taped up to a cotton pillow so he can actually wrap his fingers around mine. His ng tube is gone (the one in his nose that wasn't ever used for anything at all). His color looks good and his blood tests are all good. He is breathing well and seems to be very comfortable. His stomach is less distended today due to the stools he has released. Hope that's not too much information :) He is cleared for surgery for Friday, and I know how important it is for him to get the surgery but I have asked them not to do it until Monday. They have told me that one of the surgeons is not working because they just had a baby, and another one is on vacation, so he won't actually be for sure on Friday and I am really tired of getting my hopes up for a specific day and then having my hopes let down. This way Brandon can work this week and take off next to be here for the surgery. It is just more likely that he'll actually get the surgery on Monday rather than Friday. That's the plan for now, but I have learned to not put too much into plans that come from this place. We're just here till we're not. Keep praying and thanks for the support! Love you all!Zeffiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15467585871583478613noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-530346987237142095.post-74120937477806362402010-04-26T16:23:00.001-07:002010-04-26T16:34:15.818-07:00Today they ran his tests again on his white blood cell count, and surprise, no more infection! I don't know why, but there just isn't any sign of one. They still had infectious disease specialists come look at him today, but they haven't had any reports back yet of what they might think it is. They are still postponing surgery till Friday at least, if not next week. He really does look really good today though. A lot of the swelling in his face and stomach have gone down. They have started feeding him again, more than just his tpn. (Tpn is just his calories and proteins and any extra nourishment that he needs) So he is getting breast milk at least for the next few days. They don't want his intestines doing too much work during surgery so they'll stop the feeds before surgery day. He was so alert this morning I couldn't believe my eyes! He was awake and looking at Brandon and I for about 20 minutes. Brandon's parents were there too. Apparently it's not his first time being that alert because aunt Dawn and my mom have seen him really alert as well, but it was my first time seeing him actually looking at me and not wondering does he see me or are his eyes just open with that drugged look on his face? I know he saw me and he kept looking at me with this face of "Mom this really sucks, but I'll do it any ways." I feel so bad for the pain he must feel and it's so hard not being able to kiss it better. I hope we have more good days like this morning. It really was so cute!Zeffiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15467585871583478613noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-530346987237142095.post-37889070865263040212010-04-25T19:43:00.000-07:002010-04-25T19:56:20.358-07:00No surgery againNo surgery tomorrow. I am getting used to this and I guess I was prepared to hear that he wouldn't be getting the surgery tomorrow. We just can't seem to catch a break. His white blood cell count went down to a 1.1 which is a good sign that there isn't an infection, but his premature cells are high indicating that there is an infection somewhere. He is currently on 3 different antibiotics and his cultures are all clean so they don't have a clue what or where to look for an infection. They will have an infectious disease team come look at him tomorrow to see if they can give them a better idea of where to look for an infection. They'll probably do some ultrasounds to see if they can see anything that they can't see from the outside. I am grateful to the Doctors and Nurses that are taking care of him and making sure that he's in the best shape possible to go into surgery, so that he'll have the best chances. It is very frustrating though to have so many set backs and not even know what they really are. For now I will stay here with him and Brandon will go home to be with the other kids until they know more. They have mentioned Friday as a possibility for surgery, but I'm not getting my hopes up. The surgeons want him to be off of the antibiotics before the surgery. I am thinking maybe next week. So for now this is home, and we'll make the best of it. Keep him in your prayers and know that we love you all and are grateful for your support!Zeffiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15467585871583478613noreply@blogger.com0