I remember the way you looked at me,
Your blue eyes would open wide for me to see.
You know I'll always be missin' you,
And though it's hard you know I'll make it through.

You are the one thing that I adore,
The one thing I know is worth dying for.
I'm so, so sorry for the way,
Things turned out that day in May.

I can still see the snow as clear as day,
I close my eyes and I just drift away.
Though it's dark my eyes can see,
The sunshine your spirit poured back into me.

I still feel your love surrounding me,
And though you're gone your peace is here with me.
I'm so, so sorry for the way
Things turned out that day in May.
But I'm so, so glad that I can say,
I'll see you my love, I'll see you again some day.

 

 

 

 

So today for Tate's birthday we went to IHOP for breakfast and had planned on going to Snow Canyon Park to hike and have a picnic, but the weather wasn't coordinating with our plans.  Once the rain cleared up we did end up going to the family farm and having a hot dog roast and just hanging out with the family.  We then went to Tate's grave and wrote our birthday messages on some balloons and tied the balloons to his cute flower basket that Grandma and Grandpa E. gave him.   

One year

One year ago today my life was turned upside down by the beautiful baby boy I was blessed to be able to call my son.  I had no clue what this amazing little spirit that was inside me was going to do for me!  He has changed me so much and continues to do so from the other side.  I can't believe it's been a whole year, and at the same time it seems a life time ago. 
The kids are so cute when they talk about him and what they remember.  Olivia continues to pray for him every night and gets offended if anyone else forgets to mention him in their prayers.  Asher loves to look at the pictures and talk about how things will be when we get to be together again.  Avaree likes to go with us to the grave and every time we drive away, she waves at the grave and says "bye baby Tatum!  I love you."  We all are missing him so much and it seems that the pain gets easier with time, but occasionally it comes back full fledged and consumes me.  I am so grateful for all of the pictures and memories I have with him and can't wait for more to come!  I love you Tate!

I didn't get pictures of Valentines day but we did decorate with a really cute heart wreath and valentines from us and the kids.  We love keeping his grave updated!  These are the decorations for St. Patricks Day, we hung decorative clovers on the posts too with notes from us on them.