Monday, April 12, 2010

We were starting to think that we weren't going to be able to hold Tatum this last weekend. It was Sunday afternoon and we'd decided we'd leave about 4 PM and it was after 12. The surgeons still hadn't given the go ahead for us to hold him and I figured it just wasn't meant to be. By 1:00 I'd given up hope. Brandon and Kelly were back sitting with him and Shelli and I were sitting in the waiting room when Kelly came back and let me know that I could hold my baby! I have never scrubbed in so fast in the whole 2 weeks we've been there! Brandon let me hold him first and the only pictures we got are on Brandon's phone, so I'll try to get them on here soon. Brandon held him next and then Shelli was able to hold him for a few minutes, but he wasn't doing well with all of the movement, so I held him again after her and just sat with him for about an hour. It was really nice having him in my arms, but there were so many tubes and wires that I could only hold him in one position and it takes about 3 people to get him moved without any issues! It's quite the ordeal! I am home again for the week and I'm missing him like crazy! They are feeding him breast milk through a tube that goes directly into his stomach. I'm hoping they will be able to continue to up the portions throughout the week and that I'll be able to breast feed him on Friday. Even a bottle would be nice! Through the mouth would just be great! I don't care how he gets it though, I just want him home! The plastic's team came by yesterday to take a look at his cleft and they said it would be 3 surgeries at the least and a possibility of 10 surgeries. They will also have to coordinate with the cardiologists to see if they can do surgeries before the heart or have to wait till after. He's going to have a rough first year of life that's for sure! I know that he has a purpose to fulfil here on earth though! He is here for a reason and I pray that my Heavenly Father will allow him to stay here much longer! He is such a blessing in my life and many other peoples lives.


  1. It is the greatest feeling in the world to be able to hold your baby after you haven't been able to. That was one of the best days of the whole time we have been here. I wish the best for you and if you need anything up here while you are gone let me know. It looks like we will be up here for a while longer.

  2. That is the greatest moment for a new mom! I am so glad you got to hold your precious angel! I hope things continue to improve for Tate! Good luck and lots of prayers.